ive been feeling like as if im on a roller-coaster ride this few weeks. Ive been thinking and thinking about what i should and shouldn’t do. Since I’ve been doing what people want me to for all these while, ive decided to make my own decision.
First up, im gonna pass my degree no matter what then move on to another degree in Switzerland. If im able to get a job there, i guess i should just stay there permanently. Pay is not that bad despite the high living standard. lol.
Second, never ever date bestfriends anymore. went with both my bestfriends and it really dint turn out well. Get “love at first sight” or something (if they truly exist). not that my bestfriends are of bad qualities, they are good people(really really good ones) but i guess they are just not meant(and made) for me. You can never force love. So, its better if things stop right there, right at the bestfriend boundary. 🙂
Little dedication ahead…
You ( yeah you, bestfriend),
I’m sorry i didn’t try to hold on to our relationship. Ive been really selfish to have kept u for a month, i should have let go earlier than that. I thought time will change everything, even love. But the outcome has proved me wrong. I know love is something that nobody can actually force so i let you go. It’s okay that you’ve never love me, you might have mistaken like as love. I might be just someone you can actually talk to and share some stuffs to, that’s why you mistook this as love and thought we could actually get together. I wont hate you, because you’re not the only one who made the wrong move. Not that i really don’t trust you, you’ve never really try to understand yourself or know what you truly feels. But dude, you still like her. She’s still there. You can NEVER take anyone in if you don’t remove all your feelings for her. Well of course, its not something you can remove in a day or two, sometimes months or years. Ive been there, done that. I know how hard it is. Ive waited for mine and only finally removed mine after a few years. Good luck. 🙂
P.s will blog about baby april’s bday soon! 🙂